I can't count all the times I have had someone tell me how hard change is. The nice thing is that i've been rusted in this position for so long that it actually feels good to stretch out a little. I feel like I'm starting to gain a little more balance as I take steps outside the lines and begin the journey to the top of the mountain. I hold tightly to all the values and friendships of the past and relish in the companionship of new experiences and people. It feels good to redefine words like love, compassion, FORGIVENESS, talent, acceptance and action. All the words that weave themselves into MY story and all the punctuation that I now understand is under MY control. I know I'm chapters away from the end but at least now I'm happy about that!!!! If you are reading this...I LOVE YOU!!!!
Stop and Stare by One Republic
This town is colder now
I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move
I'm shakin' off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands just take the wheel
Every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal for the life I lead
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving, but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see
They're tryin' to come back, all my senses push
Untie the weight tags I never thought I could
Steady feet don't fail me now,
I'm gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out, and I'm standing down.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Happy Birthday RJ!!!
Happy Birthday Buddy! What can I say except that you truly are the most beautiful person I know!!!! It blows me away that we've known each other "half our lives" and I still can't find the right word to describe the loving, understanding and non judgemental love we share. You have taught me so many things about what living should consist of and have shown me many paths I would never see on my own. I can't thank you in the mere words of a woman thanking a man for all the times you have "saved" me and encouraged my unsteady and carefully placed steps through life. We have grown up together and grown through so many wonderful and sometimes heartbreaking experiences. I feel an immeasurable amount of peace that I can simply look into your eyes and know that you "get" ME.
With all the memories that my heart, spirit and dreams can hold, I walk in the present and look to the future with you. I imagine the day I finally see you hold our children and become the father that only YOU are able of being.
I wish you all my love on your birthday and raise my glass (still as empty as ever.... :) ) to you!!!!!!
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Can a computer really tell you who you are?
This is a computer generated description of me. I got this back after entering my birthdate (with the year). Crazy...most of this is true!
You have a good imagination, and often exhibit sensitivity to others. At times, you may tend to be overly sensitive to criticism. You can be excessively cautious or narrow in your outlook unless you receive the right kind of encouragement. You are a warm hearted person, with much love to give. You probably like children, and exhibit many playful characteristics. Sometimes you feel jealous, and must avoid becoming overly possessive in your relationships. There may be times in your life when you give in to feelings of sadness or depression. You are likely to make decisions based on intuition or feelings rather than intellect. There are inconsistencies in your energy level, possibly triggered by external factors or emotional changes. Although you have ambition, you do not always exert the energy necessary to be successful. You have a basically strong constitution, and should enjoy good health most of the time. You are likely to make many changes in the direction of your life. This may be based on interruptions due to health problems, or it may be that you just have trouble focusing your energy. No matter what other factors influence your personality, there is an under lying sense of practicality that you can draw on if you wish.
You have a good imagination, and often exhibit sensitivity to others. At times, you may tend to be overly sensitive to criticism. You can be excessively cautious or narrow in your outlook unless you receive the right kind of encouragement. You are a warm hearted person, with much love to give. You probably like children, and exhibit many playful characteristics. Sometimes you feel jealous, and must avoid becoming overly possessive in your relationships. There may be times in your life when you give in to feelings of sadness or depression. You are likely to make decisions based on intuition or feelings rather than intellect. There are inconsistencies in your energy level, possibly triggered by external factors or emotional changes. Although you have ambition, you do not always exert the energy necessary to be successful. You have a basically strong constitution, and should enjoy good health most of the time. You are likely to make many changes in the direction of your life. This may be based on interruptions due to health problems, or it may be that you just have trouble focusing your energy. No matter what other factors influence your personality, there is an under lying sense of practicality that you can draw on if you wish.
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